This post is made special for Erin.
With that being said I'll tell you whats up. So, the past few days I have had what I thought was a terrible cold. I had a runny nose, cough, sore throat and was completely exhausted but I had been trying real hard to fight it off and was taking over the counter medicine but it just wasn't going away. I finally gave in and decided to go to the Health Center here on campus. After running a few tests it was confirmed: Tonsillitis. :( I'm now taking antibiotics, cough medicine(again) and some thing for a sore throat. Plus, I have to take the next few days off work to re cooperate and get better. I hope I get better soon!
Oh well, in other news I finished Spring term. I'm still waiting for my grades to be posted... I know I didn't do to well though....
oh gee, I sound all sorts of pessimistic today. haha, sorry guys.
I promise more optimistic things in the future.
Monday, June 6, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Time for Contemplation and Slacking Off
Ok, first off I would like to admit to you that I should be finishing homework. There is a research paper that hasn't been started, a stats test to be studied for, a novel to be read, and accounting assignments that are beckoning me. I'll ignore them right now however, because I just do not feel like dealing with it.
Today I realized that I love my jobs. The one as a lifeguard and the one in the cell shop. When I realized this I was amazed at myself. I've pretty much always loved my LG job but I started out HATING my job at the cell shop. It made me cry. I felt incompetent. I felt inadequate. I wanted to quit terribly. But I stuck it out because I needed the money. Now, less than 2 months later I love my job.
I'm starting to think that this sudden affection towards the space no bigger than a walk in closet is partially due to the stress of school. Due dates seem to be mounting and pressing down on me. I'm starting to doubt if i could do it. Can I make it through? What If I can't write that paper? What if I fail one more test? What if that ONE concept just doesn't make any sense to me? When I am at work, I focus on work. It doesn't matter t me because my mind has to be focused on something else ans the stress from school is pushed back. I toy with the idea of what it would be like to just work. To say screw it to my education and find a job steady enough to give me a small income. .... No, Thats is not an option. Let's face it, I can't work in a cell shop forever. I'll get bored with it soon and want another challenge. To simply work is to be is stagnant. No progression; and I NEED to continually be moving forward. I have to move on. I have to keep going. It's not that hard, I swear to myself that it's not three more weeks and I'll be done with these classes and life will slow down for a moment. I can do this.
Tonight is Friday though, and while I may not have a social life or friends to hang out with I swear I'll take full advantage of it and procrastinate that paper just a little longer. Don't worry, I'll get around to it eventually.
Today I realized that I love my jobs. The one as a lifeguard and the one in the cell shop. When I realized this I was amazed at myself. I've pretty much always loved my LG job but I started out HATING my job at the cell shop. It made me cry. I felt incompetent. I felt inadequate. I wanted to quit terribly. But I stuck it out because I needed the money. Now, less than 2 months later I love my job.
I'm starting to think that this sudden affection towards the space no bigger than a walk in closet is partially due to the stress of school. Due dates seem to be mounting and pressing down on me. I'm starting to doubt if i could do it. Can I make it through? What If I can't write that paper? What if I fail one more test? What if that ONE concept just doesn't make any sense to me? When I am at work, I focus on work. It doesn't matter t me because my mind has to be focused on something else ans the stress from school is pushed back. I toy with the idea of what it would be like to just work. To say screw it to my education and find a job steady enough to give me a small income. .... No, Thats is not an option. Let's face it, I can't work in a cell shop forever. I'll get bored with it soon and want another challenge. To simply work is to be is stagnant. No progression; and I NEED to continually be moving forward. I have to move on. I have to keep going. It's not that hard, I swear to myself that it's not three more weeks and I'll be done with these classes and life will slow down for a moment. I can do this.
Tonight is Friday though, and while I may not have a social life or friends to hang out with I swear I'll take full advantage of it and procrastinate that paper just a little longer. Don't worry, I'll get around to it eventually.
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Happy Birthday to Me!
Today I turned 19. Its that age right after 18 where you become a legal adult and right before 20 when you are no longer a TEEN and people stop cringing when they hear your age. So, what happens when you turn 19? For LDS males they go on a mission... For LDS females.. they are no longer seen as too young to marry? Maybe? I'm not sure. It seems to be just an awkward in-between age. At least it gives an excuse for a celebration!
My dear amazing sister Rouie made me dinner and a marvelous cake which I hope to post pictures of. Oh, everything was perfect. And a few friends came over to celebrate with me. It was nice and small and nothing huge which is actually how I like it. It could only have been improved if I didn't have work all day and assignments still to finish.
I think though, that the most amazing thing out of my birthday is finding out who cares. I've developed a crude way of judging how much people care by the way they wish you a Happy Birthday or if they even remember. To start there is the Facebook friend who see's it is your birthday and writes on your wall. People you don't care about and they likewise are only being polite by the gentle prodding of Facebook simply say "Happy Birthday! I hope it's great!" or something to that effect. Its nice but eh, who cares. Some will leave a longer note with an inside joke or memory or anything acknowledging that they know you outside of the digital world and that means they care slightly more. Then comes the text messagers. This is people who care about you enough to have it be private but realize that they have busy lives/ time differences that make phone calls inconvenient but they want you to know they thought of you. I like these. It really is convenient.Then come the phone calls. This is where people surprise me. To me, or at least today, a phone call meant you really cared. You were making a point to set aside five minutes with time differences an everything else to say "Hey, I remember!" It's shocking the people who called me and the people who only text me... I'll be thinking of one call for a while I am sure.
Anyway, enough of that. My birthday was great. I'm 19 now. I don't know what that means exactly but I guess it's the best I've ever been :)
My dear amazing sister Rouie made me dinner and a marvelous cake which I hope to post pictures of. Oh, everything was perfect. And a few friends came over to celebrate with me. It was nice and small and nothing huge which is actually how I like it. It could only have been improved if I didn't have work all day and assignments still to finish.
I think though, that the most amazing thing out of my birthday is finding out who cares. I've developed a crude way of judging how much people care by the way they wish you a Happy Birthday or if they even remember. To start there is the Facebook friend who see's it is your birthday and writes on your wall. People you don't care about and they likewise are only being polite by the gentle prodding of Facebook simply say "Happy Birthday! I hope it's great!" or something to that effect. Its nice but eh, who cares. Some will leave a longer note with an inside joke or memory or anything acknowledging that they know you outside of the digital world and that means they care slightly more. Then comes the text messagers. This is people who care about you enough to have it be private but realize that they have busy lives/ time differences that make phone calls inconvenient but they want you to know they thought of you. I like these. It really is convenient.Then come the phone calls. This is where people surprise me. To me, or at least today, a phone call meant you really cared. You were making a point to set aside five minutes with time differences an everything else to say "Hey, I remember!" It's shocking the people who called me and the people who only text me... I'll be thinking of one call for a while I am sure.
Anyway, enough of that. My birthday was great. I'm 19 now. I don't know what that means exactly but I guess it's the best I've ever been :)
Sunday, May 8, 2011
To My Dearest Jane, I Give You Thanks
As an assignment from my current English course I was to read Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice. I will admit that I started the assignment with little enthusiasm and wished simply for it to be over. The novel however, was greater than I anticipated and before I was a quarter of the way through I was hooked. Honestly, it is the original chick flick written with grace and insight that makes any girl long for a gentleman like Darcy or Bingley (but mainly Darcy).
Where have the men like him gone? I will not dwell on this question long because it is sure to take me to territory that I do not wish to venture into but this last sentence on the subject I will give; I will be a lady worthy of praise and to be held in high regard if I can only find a gentleman so worthy of the same esteem.
There, my Jane Austen wish is done and I can give an update of my current situation. I'm still working and living and going to school. I have reached the half way point in the term and its down hill from here. I hope to earn a B in all of my courses but I am finding it difficult to focus and a research paper (which is based on the Jane Austen novel interestingly enough) is due in less than two weeks that hasn't been started and a statistics test was failed only days ago. I am diligently trying to improve my studies though and minimize distractions. Not that I have many distractions from my non-existent social life :). I will celebrate another birthday in a few days and I look forward to a small party with family.
Alas, responsibility beckons me and I feel I must leave now. Do not dismay. I will write again as soon as I time allows.
Where have the men like him gone? I will not dwell on this question long because it is sure to take me to territory that I do not wish to venture into but this last sentence on the subject I will give; I will be a lady worthy of praise and to be held in high regard if I can only find a gentleman so worthy of the same esteem.
There, my Jane Austen wish is done and I can give an update of my current situation. I'm still working and living and going to school. I have reached the half way point in the term and its down hill from here. I hope to earn a B in all of my courses but I am finding it difficult to focus and a research paper (which is based on the Jane Austen novel interestingly enough) is due in less than two weeks that hasn't been started and a statistics test was failed only days ago. I am diligently trying to improve my studies though and minimize distractions. Not that I have many distractions from my non-existent social life :). I will celebrate another birthday in a few days and I look forward to a small party with family.
Alas, responsibility beckons me and I feel I must leave now. Do not dismay. I will write again as soon as I time allows.
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Living in Paradise
Just yesterday I was talking with my sister about what it is like to live here in a place where so many people dream about vacationing, where they set goals to go to and fantasize about what it will be like here. I never did this before I came because my dream destination has always been New York, New York and this island paradise seemed to far away from that. I came out here to go to school.
Living here does have its perks of constant good weather, beaches, cultural diversity, and of course bragging rights. However, I am not living the life I think some people imagine I am. I am a struggling college student. I work and go to school full time so honestly that leaves little time for hanging out at the beach. And while the natural parts of the island are beautiful, the flowers, trees, ocean, most things that are man made rust and decay which gives a grungy apperence.
I do love it here. I am glad I am here and I am not leaving this place any time soon but I wanted to give you an inside look on what its like when your not a tourist.
This is the view from the patio of my new place. This picture actually makes me laugh with how fallen down everything is. And this is not at all rare here.
The view from the other side of the patio. I wish I had zoomed up on where those two white vehicles are. Off to the right hand side of that truck is a mountain of junk. I have no idea what it all contains but its… interesting.
My ridiculously over priced room :) Still no roommates.
The living area in the apartment. This is also part of the kitchen area shown in the next picture. The real important thing here though is the sheet draped over the love seat. That must go! As soon as I find a replacement sheet.
I’m not sure who designed this kitchen but it is obvious that they were not thinking. If you are doing dishes and another person is using the stove; your trapped! I suppose that will not be a problem if my roommates never show though. Cross your fingers!
Ok, so there you have it :) This is how I live. I like it and it gets me by but it isn’t what a lot of people expect.
Living here does have its perks of constant good weather, beaches, cultural diversity, and of course bragging rights. However, I am not living the life I think some people imagine I am. I am a struggling college student. I work and go to school full time so honestly that leaves little time for hanging out at the beach. And while the natural parts of the island are beautiful, the flowers, trees, ocean, most things that are man made rust and decay which gives a grungy apperence.
I do love it here. I am glad I am here and I am not leaving this place any time soon but I wanted to give you an inside look on what its like when your not a tourist.
This is the view from the patio of my new place. This picture actually makes me laugh with how fallen down everything is. And this is not at all rare here.
The view from the other side of the patio. I wish I had zoomed up on where those two white vehicles are. Off to the right hand side of that truck is a mountain of junk. I have no idea what it all contains but its… interesting.
My ridiculously over priced room :) Still no roommates.
The living area in the apartment. This is also part of the kitchen area shown in the next picture. The real important thing here though is the sheet draped over the love seat. That must go! As soon as I find a replacement sheet.
I’m not sure who designed this kitchen but it is obvious that they were not thinking. If you are doing dishes and another person is using the stove; your trapped! I suppose that will not be a problem if my roommates never show though. Cross your fingers!
Ok, so there you have it :) This is how I live. I like it and it gets me by but it isn’t what a lot of people expect.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
Small Victories
Here it goes; I have had a rough and a good week all rolled into one. Days of despair and hours of pure joy. I am trying to make the small victories I have over bad things cheer me up and so far it is working out ok. Not too say that I haven't been upset at all but I am trying to be positive. This will be a synopsis of a few things going on. Enjoy.
My dearest friends have left the state and once more I am alone. I will see them again though and that makes it easier. Plus, this forces me to come out of my shell, which I dearly love, and be social with those who I am not comfortable with. I am positive this will lead to new opportunities and great experiences for me. My fingers are crossed at very least.
In other big news I have moved into my new place :) Yes, this is terribly exciting. I am now paying my own rent and not living a dorm. Life seems to be on the up and up. I haven't met any of my roomies though. In fact there is no one else moved into the apartment at all. I have no idea who they are or when they will show. This will be an adventure.
I do not wish to complain and grumble but I need to tell you, there were cobwebs on the walls when I moved in. :( ugh, the tragedy of being a poor college student. The apartments with in my budget are dumpy. I swear I will make it feel like home and I have already cleaned everything I can get my hands on. It will be exciting to see what happens the longer I stay here. What will break? What will fall apart? What stories will I have to tell after this summer is gone?
I want to put up more pictures later but I seem to have misplaced my camera in all the hustle and bustle of moving. Once I locate it I will show you my apartment :) I am so excited to share it with you.
Oh! My new bike will also be featured in this blog sometime :) I get places so much faster now and the fact that I am riding a bike makes me feel like a little kid again. Instant stress relief, you should try sometime.
Have a nice day :)
My dearest friends have left the state and once more I am alone. I will see them again though and that makes it easier. Plus, this forces me to come out of my shell, which I dearly love, and be social with those who I am not comfortable with. I am positive this will lead to new opportunities and great experiences for me. My fingers are crossed at very least.
In other big news I have moved into my new place :) Yes, this is terribly exciting. I am now paying my own rent and not living a dorm. Life seems to be on the up and up. I haven't met any of my roomies though. In fact there is no one else moved into the apartment at all. I have no idea who they are or when they will show. This will be an adventure.
I do not wish to complain and grumble but I need to tell you, there were cobwebs on the walls when I moved in. :( ugh, the tragedy of being a poor college student. The apartments with in my budget are dumpy. I swear I will make it feel like home and I have already cleaned everything I can get my hands on. It will be exciting to see what happens the longer I stay here. What will break? What will fall apart? What stories will I have to tell after this summer is gone?
I want to put up more pictures later but I seem to have misplaced my camera in all the hustle and bustle of moving. Once I locate it I will show you my apartment :) I am so excited to share it with you.
Oh! My new bike will also be featured in this blog sometime :) I get places so much faster now and the fact that I am riding a bike makes me feel like a little kid again. Instant stress relief, you should try sometime.
Have a nice day :)
Friday, April 8, 2011
Here you go
I've finished my finals and while that signifies a great load of stress off my shoulders and will give me more time to breath (at least for the next week before Spring Term starts) it means that I will be saying good bye to people who I love. I would rather not say good bye. This dreadful feeling has put a damper on my mood and the melancholy weather outside my window does nothing to improve it. The ground is wet, the sky is over cast, grey and tan are more prominent the the usual tropic green.
Please, don't go.
Or at least promise me you will come back.
Ok, enough for the melodramatics.
As for finals I think I will pass all my classes. I am not saying whether I think I did well or not because honestly I have no idea. Hopefully next term is easy. I know it won't be because I am taking yet another accounting class, statistics, and English. English will be easy. It's my first language (and only), and I took AP in high school so I expect myself to do well. I have an awesome study group for accounting so I know that I will be able to at least pass that. The killer will be statistics. I am not fond of math. And between my two jobs I don't know how much free time I will have to devote to this study. I am determined to endure however and by the middle of June it will all be over. :) yes!
Oh, I will also be moving into my new place sometime. Haha, yes that is all I know. My landlord hasn't really given me any information and keeps pushing my move in date back. Thank goodness for family on the island or I could be homeless.
In one last note. I am thankful for the fun times I've had and the friends I made over the semester. I swear if we don't have skype dates I'm gonna be pissed :).
Please, don't go.
Or at least promise me you will come back.
Ok, enough for the melodramatics.
As for finals I think I will pass all my classes. I am not saying whether I think I did well or not because honestly I have no idea. Hopefully next term is easy. I know it won't be because I am taking yet another accounting class, statistics, and English. English will be easy. It's my first language (and only), and I took AP in high school so I expect myself to do well. I have an awesome study group for accounting so I know that I will be able to at least pass that. The killer will be statistics. I am not fond of math. And between my two jobs I don't know how much free time I will have to devote to this study. I am determined to endure however and by the middle of June it will all be over. :) yes!
Oh, I will also be moving into my new place sometime. Haha, yes that is all I know. My landlord hasn't really given me any information and keeps pushing my move in date back. Thank goodness for family on the island or I could be homeless.
In one last note. I am thankful for the fun times I've had and the friends I made over the semester. I swear if we don't have skype dates I'm gonna be pissed :).
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