Time for Contemplation and Slacking Off

Ok, first off I would like to admit to you that I should be finishing homework. There is a research paper that hasn't been started, a stats test to be studied for, a novel to be read, and accounting assignments that are beckoning me. I'll ignore them right now however, because I just do not feel like dealing with it.
Today I realized that I love my jobs. The one as a lifeguard and the one in the cell shop. When I realized this I was amazed at myself. I've pretty much always loved my LG job but I started out HATING my job at the cell shop. It made me cry. I felt incompetent. I felt inadequate. I wanted to quit terribly. But I stuck it out because I needed the money. Now, less than 2 months later I love my job.
I'm starting to think that this sudden affection towards the space no bigger than a walk in closet is partially due to the stress of school. Due dates seem to be mounting and pressing down on me. I'm starting to doubt if i could do it. Can I make it through? What If I can't write that paper? What if I fail one more test? What if that ONE concept just doesn't make any sense to me? When I am at work, I focus on work. It doesn't matter t me because my mind has to be focused on something else ans the stress from school is pushed back. I toy with the idea of what it would be like to just work. To say screw it to my education and find a job steady enough to give me a small income. .... No, Thats is not an option. Let's face it, I can't work in a cell shop forever. I'll get bored with it soon and want another challenge. To simply work is to be is stagnant. No progression; and I NEED to continually be moving forward. I have to move on. I have to keep going. It's not that hard, I swear to myself that it's not three more weeks and I'll be done with these classes and life will slow down for a moment. I can do this.
Tonight is Friday though, and while I may not have a social life or friends to hang out with I swear I'll take full advantage of it and procrastinate that paper just a little longer. Don't worry, I'll get around to it eventually.