Let me tell you about my life. I wake up each day usually some around 5 am and I go to work. I stay at work (hoping between two jobs) until 6pm when I go to my sisters for dinner go home around 9 repeat process. Working about 50hrs a week doesn't exactly leave all the time/energy to go and make new friends. And most/all of my current friends have left me for the summer so I have no social life. While life isn't terrible and I do love spending time with my sister and her family some times I have moments where I realize how bad it sucks.
Tonight is one of those moments.
There was a HUGE dance on campus that I've actually been looking forward to tonight. I was seeing this as an opportunity to talk to the acquaintances/ friends I have but hardly ever see and I was going to be social. I hardly ever do anything with just friends any more and I'm really really starting to miss just hanging out. So, I wanted to go to this dance. I'd been thinking about it all day.
But, I was tired. I watched the premier of HP7.2 the night before and still got up for work on time. Running on 3 hrs of sleep my defenses were a little low and although I had only planned on it being a small nap. Just and hr or two before the dance started. No, I slept right threw the dance. I am so pissed at myself. I know it probably seems silly to be mad that I missed a dance but this was the perfect chance for me to be incredibly social and still be within my comfort zone. I could see everyone, because everyone was going to the dance, and meet new people.
Now, here I am. Up at 3am because I'm fuming over the fact that I missed the dance. .... And being up at 3 am means I'm going to be tired again tomorrow night so I will go to be early and be incredibly lame once again.
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I am sorry to hear that Nan.
ReplyDeleteYesterday evening, the flight I was in ran into trouble. I could see before my eyes what it is to never be able to finish that journey, to never reach home to my parents after months. I couldn't imagine how they would be were something to happen to their only kid. Well, after all the drama, the flight did land safely. The reason I am sharing this with you is because all these things that seemingly appear big enough to exasperate us won't matter that hour when life flashes in front of us. This is just one dance. You will have plenty more! And of course, a gal needs her beauty sleep. :-) Be well.