Better Luck Next Time

It's the weekend. TGIF and I mean it! This week has been a rough one. I have a laundry list of things that irked me but I will summarize with two major causes; (1) my bike was stolen, again (2) my landlord is slightly incompetent. These things on there own are bad enough and shoved into such a short time span I had a hard time dealing.
That is until I realized that I simply complain more than I should/have right to. All I could focus on was how things were not going my way; how now I have to buy a new bike and I'm living in the smallest space I've ever lived in and I might have been happier in a tent like I had last summer than the place I'll be in for the next six weeks. While all of that is still relevant and true I realize that I've been pretty blessed considering what could happen.

• Even though I'm walking to and from work I haven't been rained on yet. Huge blessing since it rains practically everyday, especially in the early morning. 
• I only lost a bike, not something more valuable. 
• I'm not sick, I don't have so much of a cold this week and I deffinatly don't have to deal with a chronic illness like so many others. 
• My family loves me and puts up with my crazy rants. 
• I had two paydays this weeks so financially I am in the clear. 
• The walking time I have also gives me the perfect opportunity to call home and catch up.
• My landlord hasn't unexpectedly kicked me out as he has done with other tenets.
• I'm getting my way in the end (even if the end is six weeks away)
• I can now count down the days until I'm home! 41!

See, I am pretty fortunate in many areas and that is what I should be focusing on. I know life will always be throwing me a curve ball and while this time I missed and swung wild with a negative attitude there is hope for the future that I can handle situations and set backs better in times to come.

Seem's Like It's Time To Sleep

First things first, let's just be clear that at 3 am I don't think clearly and all emotions seem so intensely heightened, especially the negative and this caused my last post to be extremely dramatic. I made a mountain out of a mole hill. Upon reflection and much needed sleep I was kind of a cry baby. 

That being said, I should probably be asleep right now. I'm not though. For some unknown reason I cannot fall asleep tonight. I'll blame it on the half hour nap I took at 8. Woe is me, I'll probably be up until 1 or 2 staring into nothingness wishing I could drift into a peaceful slumber. 

In more exciting new tomorrow I am moving rooms. This is happy and sad. I love my current roommate she's the best one I've ever had and we get along so well but moving rooms signifies one step closer to becoming roomies with my bestie who is currently hiding on the east coast. Another downer is that I will be moving all of my possessions down 3 flights of stairs and then back up 1 before it settles in its final destination. That is going to kick my but with all the climbing and I just have so much stuff. I think I may use this opportunity to weed out clothes for donation and re-decorate my space. Who knows what will happen. 

I suppose I should try and sleep again. I don't think it will happen for a while but it's worth a shot. Good night world. :)

I'm the Lamest Kid I Know

Let me tell you about my life. I wake up each day usually some around 5 am and I go to work. I stay at work (hoping between two jobs) until 6pm when I go to my sisters for dinner go home around 9 repeat process. Working about 50hrs a week doesn't exactly leave all the time/energy to go and make new friends. And most/all of my current friends have left me for the summer so I have no social life. While life isn't terrible and I do love spending time with my sister and her family some times I have moments where I realize how bad it sucks.

Tonight is one of those moments.

There was a HUGE dance on campus that I've actually been looking forward to tonight. I was seeing this as an opportunity to talk to the acquaintances/ friends I have but hardly ever see and I was going to be social. I hardly ever do anything with just friends any more and I'm really really starting to miss just hanging out. So, I wanted to go to this dance. I'd been thinking about it all day.

But, I was tired. I watched the premier of HP7.2 the night before and still got up for work on time. Running on 3 hrs of sleep my defenses were a little low and although I had only planned on it being a small nap. Just and hr or two before the dance started. No, I slept right threw the dance. I am so pissed at myself. I know it probably seems silly to be mad that I missed a dance but this was the perfect chance for me to be incredibly social and still be within my comfort zone. I could see everyone, because everyone was going to the dance, and meet new people.

Now, here I am. Up at 3am because I'm fuming over the fact that I missed the dance. .... And being up at 3 am means I'm going to be tired again tomorrow night so I will go to be early and be incredibly lame once again.