Where I Am vs. Where I Want To Be

All day long I have been wanting to be in my bed. Sleeping, reading a good book, crying my eyes out, doing anything as long as I could do it from the comfort of my bed. Instead all day I have been at work, or class, or fighting with the housing office, or in the back corner of the library studying undisturbed. I did all of that today and now, finally, I am in my bed :). It’s a small reward I get for just making it through the day. I don’t want to do the majority of the things that I am doing but I realize that I must do them in order to be where I want to be in the future. I want to live a good life. To do that I need to have a job. To have a job you need to be educated. Education costs money. I work. Sadly, my bed doesn’t travel well and I leave my bed to get what I want, even though I really want my bed too.
This situation is overly simplified but that’s how you understand. Start with the basics and then build up from there. I want to go somewhere with my life. To do great things and become a great person. I want it and I want it bad. I honestly don’t know the specifics of my good life and the great things I will do but I figure as long as I’m starting with just pulling myself out of bed every morning, learning the material given to me and working towards something, that something will make it’s self clear eventually. Although, I am not terribly fond of my current situation and the struggles it presents me with I swear I will go where I want to. As soon as I realize where that is.


PS Happy Birthday Sister!